Déjà Vu.

Hope, Faith or You? 

They said pick your poison. 

…I’m broken down, once again I’ve been torn apart from within. I’m trying, I’m trying hard to keep it together but I’m afraid I cannot do that for much longer…

They keep taking from me. They taking you away from me. I’m desperate, I’m pleading, I’m on my knees, I’m crying, I’m wailing in despair… 

“Why?, Why are they taking you away from me! Why is history repeating itself, why are we fading my love…why are we fading?” 

We have so much to do still, we’ve made so many plans, plans to give us life, plans to love, plans to simply be so long as you with me… But you are fading, why are you fading my love!?

I can now see: You lied to me, you lied & now you’re leaving me… 
You tried to protect me, guard me from the truth, from our reality & now I’m not prepared for what is to come. Once again I am not prepared for what is to come…

 You keep trying to save me, save me from myself but you cause damage, ignorance is not bliss. 

 You sold me a dream, false hope is what you bestowed perhaps with this beautiful lie you were attempting to convince yourself that there is hope, that there is joy in the room, that we’d make it through this but you fading my love & now I know why…

I’m afraid you broke me, you broke me down, once again I’ve been torn apart from within.

But now who is it to blame? Hope, Faith… Or you? 


I’m Walking Away.

 

 I really can’t do this with you right now, or anymore as a matter of fact, I cannot.

I can not be there for you no longer, I can’t keep nagging you for your time and attention though as if your time is any more important than mine…

I cannot keep trying to keep this relationship together, it’s fallen apart and I’ve come to terms with that. Fortunately. So what will happen now is: I shall move on, keep living with or without you for my existence does not depend solely or even merely on you. 

Seems though as if time has taken it’s course and we have drifted apart , seeing eye to eye has become difficult for us…maybe we’ve grown up , or maybe your lack of effort has finally made me realize that i do not need this, I do not deserve this! For i am a good person, I’m good people!

Nevertheless I wish you luck on your chosen path or whatever , may it bring infinite bliss & i hope it is everything you ever hoped for too.

It happens to be that history tends to repeat itself you see? Between you & I, I’m no longer willing to be here for that scene, that pathetic cycle…I’m no longer going to linger around here waiting for you to notice me, appreciate me or even thank me for everything I have ever done for you.

It’s about cultivating my inner circle and loving myself enough to realize when someone is treating me wrong. 
I sincerely apologize if I hurt you, it was either you or myself…and for once I was selfish. But you would understand that wouldn’t you? After so long I seem to be speaking your language now…

Ironic isn’t it?